Friday, October 18, 2013

Spooks

So here it is getting closer and closer to Halloween. Usually this time of year is the most that I miss being in Mass where it's chilly at night and in the early morning, not creeping up past 55 during the day. The heady scent of fallen leaves and the crunch of the dried ones underfoot. It reminds of me the long walks in the graveyards I would have with friends back in the day and the ghosts that we would try and capture. Or the seances that I took part in as a medium and the creepy factor that always clung to the shadows no matter where I was.

Nowadays, I have left the seances behind and don't hunt for haunts. But that doesn't mean all my ghosts are behind me. For a while, I've been trying to tune out or close the psychic door that is in my brain. Although any psychic will tell you that once a door has been opened it's hard to close, tune it out for a while, of course, but not completely turn it off. 

Sure I can still layout a deck of Tarot cards or glance at tealeaves and discern their meaning, but that holds no interest for me anymore regarding reading others. Now if someone asks me, well...that is negotiable. I'm open to it, even if lose my voice. I made a choice a long time ago to become and author and write instead of "read." I wanted to turn it all off and have a "normal" life with no ghosties. And I got that and still have that. My husband and I have been married for nine and a half years and I impressed him when we were dating by reading his palm and telling him stuff about himself that I didn't know. It was kind of comical at the time. 

I've scared his friends by telling them about the ghosts in their apartments. According to another ex friend of his, I turned my husband into the bad seed because he likes skulls and heavy metal as some of his interests and turned him from the church. But that is a different subject I won't go into. I've been discriminated against because  my religion, but I won't be burned at the stake. 

I have always accepted the fact that I am psychic even if people don't believe in it. That's their opinion, but I do know that it has helped me in writing my books. I get ideas from places that never see to make any sense. I write about the paranormal because I've had experience in certain areas of it.  

That being said, the only thing haunting me now are plot lines that won't go away and not having the amount of time I truly want to write. Oh well, can't have everything, right?

Although...I predict one day I will...hehehe

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